Thankful in the storm
I am back from Europe.. Yay!!!
More on that later... (I would love to make some posts about what the Lord taught me and how much fun I had later...)
But for now...
My name is Bekah, I have a Special Education degree from Texas A&M and I do not have a job... yet.
This may come as a shock to all of those who know what a sought after major Special Education happens to be.
It is shocking.
And even more pressing; school starts in 1 month.
One month people!!!
Why don't I have a job?
Hmmm... Very good question.
I was out of the country for prime job hunting time.
I am not organized.
I know that the Lord wants me to grow and serve in College Station one more year.
There are millions of jobs elsewhere.
Ok, ok, I am really unorganized, and I drug my feet, and I was terribly afraid of getting a job like my oh-so-not-desirable long-term sub position.
All sad excuses.
Well, now I am back, in the country, and have turned in my application for the singular job that I qualify for in Bryan ISD.
And still nothing.
So, I sit, I wait in Boerne.
This is hard.
This is especially hard being away from a body of believers.
I have SCOURED the Word for what I am supposed to be doing.
Did I mention that I have $.28 in my acount?
But, the Lord always keeps his promises.
My sweet future roommmate Amanda reminded me of Jeremiah 29:11-13 today, "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12 Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. 14 I will be found by you," declares the LORD, "and will bring you back from captivity."
He does have plans for me.
They are WAYYYYY better than my plans. (see Isaiah 55)
Can I use way as an adjective?
He even says my plans are ROTTEN compared to his.
Rotten.
Hmm.
Okie.
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him,[a] who[b] have been called according to his purpose.
And the one that I KEEP reading is, "Wait on the Lord and Keep his way."
Ok, so waiting and keeping and Scouring.
What am I waiting for?
I feel so behind. Everbody else already has a job. They got their stuff together years ago, and have a cute classroom and a job.
But as I have been so lovingly reminded by Julie Faye (her new name since there are two of them!!):
What God has for you is not always the same as the rest of the world.
Its like in Her Hands when Heather taught us that we CANNOT have this list of our lives to check off.
College. check.
Married. check.
Babies. check.
So, in the midst of all of this, the ONE thing the Lord has put on my heart is to be Thankful!!
What a surprise!
And I am so amazed and thankful for this grateful attitude.
I am thankful for this storm.
I am thankful that I get to cart around my super cute 21-year-old brother was still loves Legos and Disney songs.
Have I mentioned how cute this kid is!?!
This is a blog in itself.
He always asks me,
Bekah! Guess what happens in Episode (1-9) to so-and-so when this blows-up?
And things like,
The insert random country's Navy deployed a new insert-obscure weapon name in 1933.
Neat.
You just can't get questions and facts like that anywhere else.
And he won't always be here to hang out with and be barraged with such trivia.
I am thankful that I am stuck here in Boerne, Texas with my relatives that are so close.
I can randomly stop by.
I can play the sports they love with them.
I can go over and hug them.
I am thankful that I have parents who care about me enough to not spoil me.
I am thankful that I have this growing season, that I am out of money and that I have to look to the Lord for everything.
Thats right.
I cannot trust in my own judgment, or my own ways, because I have none left.
The Lord has SO GRACIOUSLY taken everything that I LOVE to cling to and said simply,
Look at me.
And in the world's eyes, this is NOT very important.
It is HARD to tell people that.
Thank you for telling me about this really great job opportunity in ____, Texas, but I have been called to grow more in the Lord at my church.
But fortunately, I do not live according to the world's standard.
Yes, I said fortunately.
But its not always pretty.
Wait for the LORD and keep his way. He will exalt you to inherit the land; when the wicked are cut off, you will see it. (Psalm 37)
I am waiting.
If I do not get "the land" i.e. the world's idea of a good job, then that is ok.
Waiting for Him is always worth it.
If I have to wait for years and years and years, and the point of the entire thing is to see Him, then
It is worth it.
More on that later... (I would love to make some posts about what the Lord taught me and how much fun I had later...)
But for now...
My name is Bekah, I have a Special Education degree from Texas A&M and I do not have a job... yet.
This may come as a shock to all of those who know what a sought after major Special Education happens to be.
It is shocking.
And even more pressing; school starts in 1 month.
One month people!!!
Why don't I have a job?
Hmmm... Very good question.
I was out of the country for prime job hunting time.
I am not organized.
I know that the Lord wants me to grow and serve in College Station one more year.
There are millions of jobs elsewhere.
Ok, ok, I am really unorganized, and I drug my feet, and I was terribly afraid of getting a job like my oh-so-not-desirable long-term sub position.
All sad excuses.
Well, now I am back, in the country, and have turned in my application for the singular job that I qualify for in Bryan ISD.
And still nothing.
So, I sit, I wait in Boerne.
This is hard.
This is especially hard being away from a body of believers.
I have SCOURED the Word for what I am supposed to be doing.
Did I mention that I have $.28 in my acount?
But, the Lord always keeps his promises.
My sweet future roommmate Amanda reminded me of Jeremiah 29:11-13 today, "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12 Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. 14 I will be found by you," declares the LORD, "and will bring you back from captivity."
He does have plans for me.
They are WAYYYYY better than my plans. (see Isaiah 55)
Can I use way as an adjective?
He even says my plans are ROTTEN compared to his.
Rotten.
Hmm.
Okie.
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him,[a] who[b] have been called according to his purpose.
And the one that I KEEP reading is, "Wait on the Lord and Keep his way."
Ok, so waiting and keeping and Scouring.
What am I waiting for?
I feel so behind. Everbody else already has a job. They got their stuff together years ago, and have a cute classroom and a job.
But as I have been so lovingly reminded by Julie Faye (her new name since there are two of them!!):
What God has for you is not always the same as the rest of the world.
Its like in Her Hands when Heather taught us that we CANNOT have this list of our lives to check off.
College. check.
Married. check.
Babies. check.
So, in the midst of all of this, the ONE thing the Lord has put on my heart is to be Thankful!!
What a surprise!
And I am so amazed and thankful for this grateful attitude.
I am thankful for this storm.
I am thankful that I get to cart around my super cute 21-year-old brother was still loves Legos and Disney songs.
Have I mentioned how cute this kid is!?!
This is a blog in itself.
He always asks me,
Bekah! Guess what happens in Episode (1-9) to so-and-so when this blows-up?
And things like,
The insert random country's Navy deployed a new insert-obscure weapon name in 1933.
Neat.
You just can't get questions and facts like that anywhere else.
And he won't always be here to hang out with and be barraged with such trivia.
I am thankful that I am stuck here in Boerne, Texas with my relatives that are so close.
I can randomly stop by.
I can play the sports they love with them.
I can go over and hug them.
I am thankful that I have parents who care about me enough to not spoil me.
I am thankful that I have this growing season, that I am out of money and that I have to look to the Lord for everything.
Thats right.
I cannot trust in my own judgment, or my own ways, because I have none left.
The Lord has SO GRACIOUSLY taken everything that I LOVE to cling to and said simply,
Look at me.
And in the world's eyes, this is NOT very important.
It is HARD to tell people that.
Thank you for telling me about this really great job opportunity in ____, Texas, but I have been called to grow more in the Lord at my church.
But fortunately, I do not live according to the world's standard.
Yes, I said fortunately.
But its not always pretty.
Wait for the LORD and keep his way. He will exalt you to inherit the land; when the wicked are cut off, you will see it. (Psalm 37)
I am waiting.
If I do not get "the land" i.e. the world's idea of a good job, then that is ok.
Waiting for Him is always worth it.
If I have to wait for years and years and years, and the point of the entire thing is to see Him, then
It is worth it.
posted by bekah at
2:36 PM
2 Comments:
Yay for your new job!! And Legos rock. :)
Bekah,
I am glad that the Lord is teaching you so much. I miss getting to see you, but I loved this blog update. And what a sweet and precious time that you get to spend with your brother. What a fun picture, Josh loves Starwars too. God is awesome and good and He will take care of you. His way, His timing.
Love and miss you,
Sarah
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